It's been about a month since my last post....(deep sigh).....things are still coming against us. But I have come to some truths that I would like to share with you. I hope that you will allow these things to reach deep into your soul and give you hope and courage for what you face.
No matter what happens in October and November, I know that I am not alone. I know that my God goes before and behind. I know that greater is He that is in me than he that is in this world. I know that when Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego faced the fiery furnace there was only hope that the Lord would save them, and even if He didn't they wouldn't forsake Him. I know that they weren't just saved but God was with them in the midst and they didn't even smell like smoke.
I know that no matter what, God will be in my midst and I will not smell like smoke. I know that what the Lord has prepared for me is greater than I can think or imagine for myself. I know that I choose FAITH in the face of fear. I will not cower, I will not be bound, I will not loose heart, I will not be overcome. Because though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will not fear. Death does not touch me! I walk through the valley, I do not camp there!!
I am a Kings Kid and I hope and pray you are to. I would be lost and overwhelmed in this situation without the hope and promises of God. I also know that many of you feel abandoned, alone, and left for dead by God. I know that many of you are angry about the circumstances you find yourself now, "if He loved me I would have been spared and protected" etc, etc.
I have had those feelings to, even just a few weeks ago. The God where are you, Why aren't you doing anything, Lord save me, Lord you left me defenseless and alone. Yet, God is good. His ways are not our ways and His thoughts are not our thoughts. In this world we have free will. Each and every one of us. We can choose to seek evil or good, right or wrong, abuse or care. If we each have this freedom then it just makes sense that some people are going to manipulate, take advantage, and abuse.
Not only is it people that have a will but so does God and so does Satan. We get to choose if we want to align ourselves with the Lord, Satan, or our own will. I know that when we walk in the Lord and listen to His prompting He keeps us on a path of freedom.
Many have been hurt by the Church, Pastors, Church boards, and Congregants. I want to say how truly sorry I am that in the place where you are to find love, trust, freedom, and validation you were stolen from and shamed. They stole your peace, they broke your trust, and made you to blame. There is no excuse for what they did. Know this, THEY ARE NOT GOD!!!!!
Do not run or sacrifice God's love, trust, freedom, and validation because of some corrupt and broken people. I know "but you don't know what they did to me, you don't understand". Sadly I do, I know to well the people that want you shushed and quite. I know how hard it is to step out and say something only to have it thrown back with words of condemnation, scorn, and "don't bother us, this couldn't happen, we are a church".
God has seen all, He knows what happened to you, He knows how this has effected you, He wants to help you heal and find love, He wants you to have a greater identity than what others try to put upon you. And you know what, He has each and every one of your tears accounted for in a jar so that He can replace each one with joy. His heart breaks when your heart breaks, He has heard every silent cry your heart has uttered, you are heard!
Seek Him and He will be found, all you have to do is invite Him in. "but He won't love me, I'm not perfect, I have messed up, Im so dirty" He didn't come for the perfect and blameless, He is the perfect and blameless, who has written your name in the scars on His hands, so that you may never know the pain of this world again. When He rose from the dead He defeated the power of Satan to come and overtake you. He gives you the keys over death, hell and the grave.
And get this We are Jesus Christ's Inheritance! Us, the people that call upon His name for freedom and future, health and healing, forgiveness and grace!!
I love and appreciate each one of you that are joining me on this journey through a battle I never thought I would have to face in my life. I would love to know if you are making a decision for Christ or Returning to His Love and Comfort. Please either leave a comment or send me an email.
I want to be able to pray for you as you pray for me! This is a journey of healing we should never have to face alone.
And if you do not agree with where I stand in God I want you to know that I will still love you and hope that you can gain something from what I have put together. I have poured out my heart here and I respect that not everyone will agree. Free will ya know ;)